After lurking on this board for 9 months or so, I\'m writing my first post.
I\'ve read a lot of horror stories that cause me to wonder if I\'m mad to even consider PE surgery. That said, I think about surgery EVERY SINGLE DAY. I feel desperate, and terribly unhappy about my size.
I\'m in my late 40s and have been married for 21 years. My wife has never complained about my size, but that doesn\'t make me feel any better. Since my early teens, I\'ve shunned any locker room situation like the plague-- no sports, changing at the gym, pool parties, etc. Yes, I\'m definitely a
Grower, but I start very small and end up with a modest size. I\'m being quite generous with myself to call it modest!
My wife is extremely against the idea of PE, but I think part of that is because she\'s never had any other partner, so she doesn\'t really appreciate what a bigger penis might feel like for her. I\'m sure she is also afraid I\'ll wreck what little I\'ve got. I sure as heck have the same fears. But I just hate being this small. After decades of marriage, I\'m still always so careful to make sure she doesn\'t see it in a
Flaccid state.
Flaccid, I\'m at about 1.5.
Erect is just under 5\". While I\'m not exactly thrilled with that
Erect length, my real concern is a 1.5\"
Flaccid length. About 15 years, I worked up my nerve, and asked the
Urologist who was performing a vasectomy on me, about PE. He just kind of rolled his eyes and said \"you\'re 75 lbs overweight! Your problem is your diet, not your penis\"! I know that\'s part of it, but it can\'t be the whole story.
I know how this sounds, but I\'m considering Dr. Elist. There have been so, so many bad experiences reported by his patients on this board, and that truly frightens me. I can\'t, however, seem to find any other doctor out there who does penile implants for size, rather than ED. Yes, I understand that probably because implants are a bad idea for most men. But I keep wondering... are the many failures that seem to be reported with Elist\'s procedure, leading to improvements in his technique and materials? That\'s what I\'m trying to tell myself. This is in no way meant to underplay the pain and emotional suffering of the many men whose lives Dr. Elist seems to have ruined. I can\'t imagine how terrible that must be. Still, I ask myself, isn\'t it worth the risk? How great would it feel to have an annual physical, and not feel ashamed? How great would it feel to possibly have my wife say \"wow!\"? How great would it be to not leave the gym in sweaty clothes, so as to avoid a shower? How much more badly will I feel if he ruins me, than I feel in my current state?
I almost convinced myself that it\'s not worth the risk, but then about 10 days ago I noticed Elist put a new video up on YouTube. I\'m not going to provide a link, because I want to avoid even the appearance of being a shill; but his new video makes it seem like he\'s made all these improvements, and that\'s what makes me wonder if maybe the suffering of his past patients has resulted in a better implant.
So that\'s where my head is at the moment. I welcome all comments.
Thanks.
