TOPIC: PMMA REMOVAL

Thought I\'d add my last PMMA procedure was 7 months ago and the lumps haven\'t got any softer.
Wade stopped returning my emails , not happy with the aftercare at all.

@Finished
What were your stats pre procedure? What ammount of PMMA did you have and what strength?

Finished

I really didn\'t need to have the lump removed. Yes it was noticeable to the touch but I could have left it and moved on with my life.
I had the surgery last week and it rook only 48hrs for me to regret the decision. I\'m still in the healing stages but at the end of the day you\'re going to have a scar on your penis. This is unavoidable and altho you can lighten, flatten and hide the scar as much as possible, it will always be there. This is something that I didn\'t put any serious thought into b.c I just wanted it out. Huge mistake.

I\'ve examined my penis yesterday and not only did the dr not remove all of the bulge I wanted him to remove, but the other areas of my base have a squishy feeling to it. Its like the PMMA was broken up and now feels squishy. I don\'t know if this will harden, stay squishy or what but its extremely inconvenient. I absolutely need another round of PMMA to even out my unit and I\'m stressed by the added time, money and energy ill need to do so.

Ultimately I treated my penis like a puzzle in that if I take one piece out I could easily put another piece in. Its not that easy. I didn\'t take into serious consideration the scarring, risk of length loss, needing to continue working on it, healing time away from friends family and work etch... I was fine and should have left it.

That being said my lump wasn\'t hard so I don\'t know how you feel about it but what I should have done was simply write a list of pros and cons of having the procedure and make a rational, not emotional decision.

Also call wade and dr c. dont email them. Call them once a week until you get a hold of them.

Do you suffer from anxiety or ocd?

I have ocd. I\'m obsessed with my size. What was happening pre PMMA was I was obsessing over numbers, words like big or small, objects shaped like a penis. Numbers were the worst tho. When I heard someone say 6, I thought 6 inches. Every number I heard I related it to inches.

I thought the only way to eliminate this was thru PMMA. I thought that if I get a bigger Dick, ill stop my obsessive thoughts and feeling inferior. The last few years have been crippling.

Now, I\'m very depressed. I wish I had conservative appointments with dr c. And I absolutely wish I never had the Removal surgery.

I\'m afraid that unless I get this fixed once and for all with another PMMA session, I may never be happy about basic things again b.c ill always things about my sad penis.

By the way, I\'m aware of my tone the last few days and I know you may all think I sound pathetic. This is just a really tough time for me.

I agree with jd123. It sounds like you have anxiety or penile dysmorphic disorder. I should know because I too suffer from anxiety and I used to be obsessed over size when I was younger. That fades as you age and realize more important things in life.

You can\'t determine after 48 hours that your surgery was a mistake. Healing can take several months and will take a lot of care, rest, and patience to get through it. I am going through a similar healing process as you right now. I just keep my mind on other things and let the slow healing process work. The scars will heal too. Try this scar gel.

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Ive been researching like crazy the last few days about proper after care and the best thing I found was to put Vaseline on it everyday and keep it covered with a larger bandage. Some light massaging of the area is said to be good for the wound too.

Have you been using this cr'me?

My surgeon gave me an antibiotic ointment and said to keep replacing the bandages until i go back to see him. He used dermabond on me. Do you have actual stitches? How many incisions did he make on you? How long are the incisions? I have one about a little over an Inch long (horizontal).

Not sure. They\'re not staples, so I guess they\'re Sutures. I thought stitches and Sutures were the same thing. I wont wait for them to dissolve , ill have them professionally taken out on Friday. The 9 day mark.

Why do you recommend that cr'me?

Also, you should dab a little Vaseline on it everyday then bandage it up. It acts as an antibiotic and helps the healing process. Google it!

Yeah, I\'m using an ointment called Aquaphor right now. I\'m not using that scar gel I recommended until the dermabond glue falls off.

YWF, you need to stop stressing yourself out. Right after surgery your (my Dick) always gets fluid buildup, hence the squishiness, it will resolve itself over the course of a few weeks and scaring in that area is almost invisible in most cases. It will take care of itself. A few months are going to pass anyway, don\'t stress yourself waiting for your Dick to heal - it will on it\'s own. I have had 3 surgeries on my Dick and have almost no scarring at all - and they were much more severe than yours and the contour is perfectly natural. You are going to go down a giant rabbit hole that has less to do with your Dick and more to do with your anxiety disorder. Your body heals itself on autopilot, let it do that and stop stressing. The day or two or three after a Dick surgery is absolutely the WORST time to take stock of your situation. Dr. Reed is also one of the few legit surgeons and not at all a bad choice - he is not a quack and very conservative, he is absolutely no better or worse than Alter, I wouldn\'t second guess yourself, your choice in Dr.\'s was not crazy.

10003 thx a lot man. You\'re absolutely right its too early to take stock of the situation. I think I already feel the squishiness subsiding too. Hearing that its just fluid build up is a huge confidence boost. I was thinking I could cover it up with more PMMA but that it would always be there.

I\'ll be taking off my Sutures in the next few days. What did you do to limit yurt scar as much as possible?

@reklaw

I have gained a 1inch Flaccid thickness increase over my journey of procedures. I had FFT followed by a few tops ups where there were some uneven bits. I found just as the surgeon said any fat after 4 months survived, just a couple of spots where the fat didn\'t want to stay, found the same with PMMA. Couple of nodules with FFT that were taken care of by an injection but with the hard lumps with PMMA Kenalog made no improvement at all even after 4 injections.
1st PMMA procedure just over 2 years ago I had 16.5 x 30% and 7.5 x 10%. - 24cc.
Went back a 2nd time due to hard lumps and unevenness
2nd PMMA procedure 7 months ago was just a fill in uneven areas , some improvement in a couple of areas but 2 of the areas they filled are worse as I have hard lumps that are very obvious to touch and look at.

@Youngwildfreefree

I\'m not to worried about the scar as I had scrotal webbing Removal years ago and the surgeon can use the same scarline. The scar I don\'t even notice anymore, nobody has ever noticed or said anything.

That\'s great to hear man thank you. Dr said he had to cut up the penile shaft about an Inch to remove the area I wanted. This is when I should have backed out but I didn\'t.
I\'m just hoping the scar is thin, ya know? Not some big thick scar just a nice straight line you could draw with a pen.

Did you have your PMMA done with dr c? I think I\'m going to need one more full or touch up session.